I have a confession…
I am super awesome and I couldn’t be less awesome if I tried. – Heart (from The Awkward Yeti!)
Just kidding! Real confession time, though it’s not really a confession. I have a lot of anxiety. I do not actually know where it stems from but I know that it’s real and I want to get help with it. But what is anxiety? You know what’s coming next. DICTIONARY TIME:
a feeling of worry, nervousness, or unease, typically about an imminent event or something with an uncertain outcome.
desire to do something, typically accompanied by unease.
PSYCHIATRYa nervous disorder characterized by a state of excessive uneasiness and apprehension, typically with compulsive behavior or panic attacks.
Yup anxiety, I have it although I’m not sure that I can say that I have an anxiety disorder. It’s not completely disrupting my life, but it sure is making it harder to get up in the morning.
At the time that I am writing this, 18.1% of people in the US suffer from some sort of anxiety disorder and I’m sure many more have not even been diagnosed.
I remember the moment when I knew I had a problem. I did not even realize it myself, it took somebody else to come forward and tell me, straight up. And that person was my sister.
We were strolling through the Polo fields at Coachella and we had stopped in the food court to get a bite to eat. While we were waiting for food, my sister turned to me and asked if she could be honest. We were having a fun and easy breezy family outing…at Coachella. Of course she could be honest with me. She said that I need to get my anxiety in check. It worries her and it worries our parents. They don’t say anything because they don’t want to add any stress, but my level of anxiety and the agitation that stems from it is a great cause of concern.
I didn’t know that it had gotten to that bad of a level that it was concerning to OTHER people. It was already concerning enough for me, but now that it was leeching out and affecting other people? I took note and have remembered that conversation to this day. I have a lot of anxiety and I have to figure out a way to deal with it.
Well, I am still in the midst of deciding if I want to try therapy. Now, I know there is a stigma around therapy, but you should knock that bias out of your pretty head because in this day and age, everybody could benefit from a little bit of therapy! I know plenty of people who would spout the benefits of therapy and none of them are crazy people. They are just people like you and me. Those that are stressed, anxious; and not sure what to do about it. The hardest part…is actually finding a therapist that you gel with. That’s the part that will take some time unfortunately. Finding somebody that will push you JUST hard enough to help you overcome any obstacles that might be standing in your way.
That’s one way to battle anxiety, it’s getting help. Other ways to battle anxiety? Changing your mindset, which is of course, way easier said than done. There are tons of books and tons of podcasts, classes, etc. etc. with how you can do this. But really, you won’t be able to put any of this great information to good use until you are ready. To be honest, sometimes wallowing in the misery that intense anxiety brings can be exactly what I want to do. Thinking the thoughts is still easier than experiencing unhappy actual results right? WRONG BITCHES.
You have to experience things to learn how to deal with them and to learn how to bounce back. If nothing bad ever happened to you…then you’d probably turn out an anxious motherf***er because you see bad things happening to other people and you’re like “OH SHIT, that could happen to me.” But could it really? You’ll never f***ing know because you’ve never TRIED. So until you, personally, are open to moving forward with getting out of your anxious rut, no amount of self help books will help you.
I’m just about ready to take the jump. Are you?